Carl Landauer
"To David Meltzer
(48th hour after his last hour on earth)
Under the cobblestones, Venice Beach!
Everyone will say you are an angel
and you are
even with your agit smut books
and your poems with thighs dripping,
for that’s part of the angelic smirk
as you walk in sneakers someone left
in a room you don’t remember
and hear the transistor radio in sunlight
blaring songs you do remember
but prefer Monk’s keyboard laid down
and for that you will wait til night
so you can pick it up in moonlight
alongside other shells and shards
over the roar of the traffic
and the melancholic friars singing ave marias
unless you find the focaccia next door
along with morning coffee.
No-one can escape that wild mind of yours,
filled with every element of humanity,
every morsel of life,
every crumb from donut shops and bakeries
long since shuttered,
every thought of Debord and Heidegger,
Scholem and Adorno,
along with critics no longer read writing
about writers no longer read
but still full of meaning,
and you remember every
breath exhaled by friends
from LA and SF
and instilled meaning
from an infinite expanse of
mind with electric wires crossing paths,
shorting out, making connections, relighting a whole city.
But to return to that smirk, the smile,
the love that emerged along with that grin
as you lifted that martini glass to bearded mouth
to take in more life and love
and to start over.